Photographer Shares Her Heartbreak of 11 Miscarriages In Moving Series, ‘Lost’
“With each loss of my 11 babies, I kept mementos. They are all kept pristinely stored in a white box in my closet, as are the memories of their short lives kept pristinely stored in my heart.”
According to the March of Dimes website, as many as 50% of pregnancies end in miscarriage (10-15% among women who know they are pregnant). Though we don’t know all the causes of miscarriage, it is a heartbreaking and painful experience that many women go through.
For photographic artist Dianne Yudelson, her newest series, ‘Lost’ is a deeply personal reflection of her 11 miscarriages. Helping a friend through a painful loss prompted Dianne to reflect on her own experience. As part of her grieving process following the loss of each of her precious babies, Dianne kept mementos – ultrasounds, pregnancy tests, tiny booties, hats, toys – in a big white box hidden in her closet. As she gently laid each piece out on the bed, she felt the need to document the stories of each of her babies to not only “honor their precious lives,” but in the hopes of helping other women who have experienced the loss of a baby know that they are are not alone. Dianne, now 57-years-old, began this project last year; her last miscarriage was ten years ago.
For this series, Dianne diverged from her typical eclectic and often abstract photography style and photographed each image in the Lost series in the studio. Each image in the series is named after the child she lost, and the stark black and white contrast is a heart-wrenching reflection of a life lost much too soon. Dianne explains, “I arranged these items in a manner I felt told the narrative in a humble and pristine fashion in direct correlation to their short and pure lives. I have read the assertion that meaningful art occurs when you share yourself and create from the depths of your soul. So I share.”
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